Where Have I Been?

This year is almost over...and I still haven't found myself. This has been a super productive year:
-Launched a 4-month digital download campaign for www.IAmKojoe.com "Kojoe Tuesdays"
-Directed Kojoe, Raekwon, & Kurupt's "Samurydas" video shoot in Tokyo for Kojoe www.YouTube.com/ENTtokyo
-Visited my best friend in Germany and met Pharoahe Monch & DJ Boogie Blind
-Traveled to new parts of Japan to DJ
-Met and was interviewed by Jeff Johnson for a piece on African Americans in Tokyo
-Coordinated the New JAP City photoshoot for The Source Magazine with photographer Tine Time
-Produced another successful year of Yume Fest Tokyo www.TheYumeFest.com
-Met more Japan Twitter friends in 4 weeks than I would've ever met 4 years due to 3/11 @Daisha_Hunter @ENTokyoJP

Yet, I cannot seem to find myself...
I was lost somewhere in the 2 weeks following the March 11th earthquake. Thank God I didn't lose anyone directly,and my personal items were undamaged. I didn't have to run from tsunami waters and my apartment didn't crumble to the ground. But I did lose some of me and continue to everytime the earth shakes and God reminds me who really runs the world...it's definitely not girls! I also lost me everytime a close friend moved back home. Being in a soul-less country doesn't help for comfort either. The radiation didn't even have to come for the zombies to transform, they were already here. Everyone kept it moving after awhile, so I had to act like I was too. I stayed busy, but I searched for myself online...I did nothing but become a protester at Occupy Twitter.

I told myself I shouldn't complain because I didn't lose loved ones or my life. In reality, comparing your life to others doesn't help you heal faster or better. My pain is real, and so is my courage. My struggle is real, and also my fight. I'm not 100%, happy, comfortable, or productive. I'm at 50% at best. I pray, but not enough.

As I continue to push forward, I look at everything as pre 3/11 and post 3/11. They are 2 different emotional and psychological me's. One thing that is more prevalent in post 3/11 is how much work needs to be done here and how important I am here. So when people ask me do I WANT to come back to America?...HELL NO even with radiation, earthquakes, and cultural differences! Now is not the time to back down. As hard as it is to be strong right now, my hard-headedness is doubling as a hard hat. I haven't come this far in my Japan/music/media dreams to give it up now.

Underneath it all, I'm excited for what is coming from Japan and I'm positioning myself to continue this network worldwide! But bear with me as I power up and recharge my battery...2012 may be the end of the world for some of you, but since my world ended this year, I'll take 2012 as a new birth!

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